I have a very large family, it was 15 from my great-grandmother, 12 by my grandmother and a whole lot of from them all, but no one really communicates well with one another because the way we were raise. It was to the best of our mothers capabilities. However, I want to break the cycle with my children. I did not realize that my large family were dysfunctional until my adulthood. I have an aunt that moved to San Francisco to runaway from being part of us. She surrounds herself with people that will not remind her of us. I no longer communicate with any of them. Its difficult to get over those burdens and the need for support. My parents are decease including my grandparents. I find it hard to ask for help because I am always being judge. Partly, it is due to the lack of something that my family did not show. Now a single-parent, I try to do things different, but I still yell, scream and do the things I hated to go through with my dysfunctional family. I even had children with dysfunctional men with large families that appeared to be normal. Please give me advice with family counseling, peer groups or guidance to break the cycle and my girls could feel love.