Hello all, my name is Kyleen and if I answered the two intro questions we would be here for a long time! I have been with my husband for 6 years and we will be married 3 in July. I would full time for my family's cleaning business, we clean commercial buildings and so I would a split shift between the office and the actual cleaning. I probably work close to 40 hours a week but my days start at 5 a.m. with breakfast for my husband and making his lunch then my night ends (working atleast) between 10 and 11. The days are long and hard but I try to find the good in it. Doing things for myself is very hard because of the guilt that I feel and the lack of time to get everything done but I do indulge in this website on a daily basis and find that is something I do for myslef. Thanks for listening.
Kyleen,
Welcome again to the group! I have noticed a few things in your introduction that called out to me. The first one is the guilt, I have this too and will be having this as a topic soon. The second thing is that you try to find the good in what you do, good...can you talk about it? The third thing is, you make your husband breakfast and pack his lunch...are you like I was when I worked, still thinking that I had to be a housewife too...ruled by guilt!
Jennifer Thank you for the warm welcome, i am so happy to have found this group. I want to expand on finding the good in things. I have to say that the last three years of my life have taught me that you have to go on and look at the good in everything. It took my husband and I over a year and a half to get pregnant with my son, when i finally did we were in the midst of taking care of my grandfather (the man who practically raised me and whom I worshipped) who was dying of congestive heart failure. When my son was born by emergency c-section in Feb of 2006 we had just brought my grandfather home for the last time. My son had colic, I was not producing milk as fast as my son needed (he nursed every hour and a half for nearly 6 weeks) and we were taking care of my bed ridden grandfather. In June of 06 he passed away. I was completely devestated and heartbroken but I had to remember that not only did he love me with all his heart but he adored his great-grandson (the first great grandchild). It was a gift that I was able to give him in letting him meet,hold, and know (even if it was a short time) his great grandchild.5 months later,while still dealing with the loss of my grandfather, we suddenly lost my father at the age of 47. It was a total and complete shock to everyone, but worst of all my mother. I still am trying to process it even a year and a half later, again i had to focus on the fact that my son had some time with my dad but I grieve very hard for the loss of that relationship and two of the most important men in my life. In April of 07 my husband and I found out we were pregnant again and had told our entire family not really thinking much of it because it was what we did with our son when we were only 4 weeks along) then at the end of May I miscarried. Three huge losses in my life in only a year has thrown me for a loop and shown me how strong I have to be but on the other hand taking care of others (such as my widowed grandmother and mother) has also increased ten fold. I know that I am blessed in my life, in my marriage and with my job and I really do try to look at it that way when I get manic and stressed. I will share more at a later time, only a few minutes at a time to be on the computer. thanks for listening
